Still on the Edge in Sumas

The quality of my life is something that preoccupies me, even when not writing a silly web log. Whether good bad or indifferent, it seems that whatever I write, I must comment on my current emotional state. A chance to unload I guess. On a blog we can confess things you'd never say out loud in front of a live audience. You don't have to deal with stage fright, or even nerves. Fullfilling and of course self indulgent in the extreme, but with an audience of near zero who cares.

I guess I needed to get that out by way of apology. Things aren't the best right now. Near as I can figure my poz state is in hibernation, but I can't ignore the blisters on my tongue that don't seem to go away. Herpes I suppose, acyclovir will hopefully help.

I quit smoking four days ago, on a whim actually. So I'm subject to nearly instant jolts of rage, and also self pity especially when writing.

I turn 40 on Saturday. Big step, but nothing planned. Secretly hoping for surprises, but more important I'm anticipating a trip to the cabin at Boston Bar to check out our newly formed driveway! I can't believe I finally have a decent flat spot to park the Gillig.

I'm starting to wonder when exactly the exterior painting (and various internal plumbing projects) will begin. I've been wondering about installing a minimal propane system, in order to have a minimal heat source should I wish to work on the bus in mid-winter. I've been wondering about getting a water supply and holding tank system in as well, in order to start next summer off right with the basic needs (hot water shower and toilet). It would be great to actually install the wood stove and flue, however that could wait for a more basic (easier) heating system I suppose.

I met with Jim at A&B Welding in Bellingham today. He talked me out of the permanent ladder mounted on the back--due to the engine compartment and also the rear window exit. Easier and cheaper to go with an extension ladder that gets stored below. He could still build me a rack on the roof, for easier access to the stove flue and solar panels (I can dream). Ideally a rack could serve as support for a small rooftop deck, accessible from the inside via a hatch. I think since I don't have a porch this really is a fun idea. I could even dream up some kind of removable railing and umbrella. Well you gotta keep the sun off the martini glasses. Talk about quality of life.